drowsiness

coming home
from a tiring day
watching as people come
and go with dismay
wonder what it is
wonder why this
they look down
always away from the light
and as I bow
to say hello
I realize it's not the people
it's me
my eyes, my mind
how can I see happiness
when all is dark ?
I must be blind
shadow figures
with greedy  smiles
from every lonely corner
the wind shouts madness
DIE FORGET LIVE FALL DON'T LEAVE END TAKE GOD DEAD I AM KILL RUN YOU
the specters speak
all at the same time
no order no prime
HEWHAYTDOIYOKUNOWWHWATNTHEWADON"T!NOTNEALWAVEYRSNO
they scream
some have wide opened eyes
curious and angry
watching
watching
watching
watching
GET OUT !!!
run and run
there's no way out
ops...
there is...how...
stars of diamind
rushing like silent thunder
flowers of fire blosson in the dark
a tunnel of no end
an eternal fly
where will I be ?
when will I stop
will I see you once more ?
will I be able to live again ?
is it a simple sore ?
this deadly pain
may it be a pressure ?
I'm too high...above all
and I don't know
if I'm dead or just dreaming