rest in peace

it's weird how people deal with death...
and how even being so different
they all warm each other
some make jokes about it
others cry and dive in their sorrow
others remain calm and still
like a surviving wall
from the destoyed castle
and it's weird how you thought
you did all you could
but it's not really the way it is...
so many regrets...
I keep watching this movie
of sins and wrong awnsers
and I can't stop blaming myself...
it's funny how things become so clear
when they end
and I feel like I can really understand
all...
and it tortures me even more
to know her pain
and to see that I did nothing...
well I'll pay for this later
but right now I got people
to help get through this
and the least I can do is
hope that you are up there
smiling like the child you always were
"hope you go out smiling, like a child, in the cool remnant of a dream"
just like morrison said.